bull.shit.

i think i'm doing fine this past few months.
i handle that fucked up thing with cool face. and cool words. and fucking cool act.
i make it looks, ... fucking easy.

...

bullshit.
it was not easy.
never easy.

today, i mean yesterday is a bless. Big one.

today, i mean yesterday eh taktau lahh harini ka semalam nak kena cakap sebab it is now 1.49 am, 21st june but i havent sleep yet so, ok lah consider today saja la. by today, i mean 20th june. -_-

ok ulang.
today is simply a very beautiful day.

sebab sipi-sipi is, makpak bagi permission fr me to keluaq malam lah gilaaa sampai pukol 12 lebih baru balik. it is a new achievement! sebelum ni tak boleh ok? i am kinda a spoilt bitch btw. -_-

pastu i met again dengan si gila bajet cool yang dok buat aku cekang bijik mata tiap-tiap malam sampai kena tidoq pukoi 7 pagi. huh. even only fr 2 hours, tp seronok jugak. oh the permission yg i get from my parents adalah untuk si gila ni la.

the main reason is, i had a not so long heart to heart talk dengan mak. pasai aku. pasai kes aku yang aku merana lebih tu. poyo. ceh. entah lah kenapa but rasa puas and lega nya. i seriously can smile now and say to whoever it is; pegi mampos lah kerbau. =)

pastu, i just know that someone i barely know is actually know me. bukan la mcm real knowing how am i apajadah. but with just 'i know u've been thru a lot' and 'sebab u suka fynn,i dedicate puisi perempuan curang utk u!' punya ayat made me terharu sorang-sorang lepastu corny sorang-sorang. tak tau lah sebab apa (i know why actually tp i rather keep it to myself la kang bunyi macam meroyan pulak) but thanks lah weh qaseyh. =)

and it's father's day! sayangnyoo la pakcik roslim tu haaa. sama sayang la dengan makcik rosni. tak payah nak ayat-ayat bunga pelik tp, serius sayang gila. mana pernah mereka ni nak sakit kan hati aku. haih. selamat hari pak, pak! =)

ok dah. sedih pun meroyan. happy pun sama saja meroyan eh tapi seronoknya! sheesh dah la tu.
ok bye.

on second thought,

ada lagi manusia baik yang hari-hari tunjuk aku jalan yang logik secara senyap-senyap dan sikit-sikit. gila tak adil terus cakap humanity = sucks. sigh.

ada lagi kawan-kawan yang baik. walau 10 tahun kawan, walau 6 tahun, walau 4 tahun, walau 2 tahun dan walau berapa banyak la korang nak letak. takkan lah pasal sorang habis semua pun kena tempias. buruk betul perangai. sorry lah kawan-kawan. sigh.

ada lagi juga kot that 4 letters tu. cumanya, landing pada waktu dan keadaan dan situasi yang salah saja. sigh. takpa. yang ni kurang penting.

everything is sucks when everything isn't falls to their place accordingly.
tamak betol manusia.
silap sikit, terus chop sucks.
aku la manusia tu.
sigh. teruk.

so dengan rasminya, aku tarik balik lah semua yg dibawah.
but still, yang pasal the-super-great-love-story tu tetap aku malas nak ambik port asalkan korang memang confirm akan ada ikatan.

peace.

cerita manusia.

humanity sucks when there are persons that we thought we can get along and with the very good 1st impression are actually; fake.
lies, backstab, lies, lies and more lies are the new humanity nowadays.

friendship sucks when the friendship we built fr 10 years just equal to nothing. nuff said. 10 years ey? hehh

and now, stop telling people that you have a great love story. because i dont fucking believe in it too. i was once gila babi punya punya in love fr 2++ years with 4years of friendship and that's the only reason that brings me down and drown with tears. eh over pulak. so again, cut that off already. lantak la korang ada awek/balak best pun aku peduli apa? haha. but seriously, i dont wanna know and i dont fucking bother to know pun. eh unless you guys get married. that sacred stuff somehow melt me really bad. corny, i know. so, cakap lebih takmau ok? nikah ja terus aku tepuk tangan confirm.

haha. jyeah when the broken heart starts talking. boo me. -_-

and again,

ngehehe.
i am a drama queen.
nak buat macam mana?
haha.
bye.